Monday, March 19, 2012

I am who I am :')

我并没有改变
我还是我

有时 只是累了
有时 只是不想表明
有时 只想掩饰些东西
有时 只想没烦恼
有时 只想没理由的开心

大家都认为我过得很好
吃 喝 玩 乐
天天都很同学一起玩闹
当玩闹之前 我们努力 我们奋斗了不少
天天去哪里玩 哪里享受 发掘美食
只想把快乐代替郁闷 只想把很多很多的快乐掩饰好所有一切

每天很颠的过生活 qisin婆一样玩闹 去这去那
朋友 觉得我很好 我变了 变得很多
只想忘记 只想放下 一些我早该放下的东西
但却至今 我放不下的那些大家以为我一直都很好

我必须要独立坚强
朋友以为每次有同学相伴
同学以为每次有朋友家人相伴
亲戚以为每次有同学朋友相伴
家人以为每次有朋友同学亲戚相伴
无忧无虑
难道凡事都只看表面吗

但我也只不过都是一个人做每件事
害怕不喜欢不习惯一个人 的以前那位小姐
从去年开始 她必须不害怕适应习惯一个人 独立
不开心也必须开心笑着过每一天 让大家知道她很好
而现在她的确独自过这她必须过的生活
不依靠 没相伴也一样去完成

不明白 却被质疑
有时 的确伪装得累了
当你被最亲的 最关心的 朋友或家人那样的质疑
但还是必须以一个人伪装下去 对啊 我就是这样过这生活
有时真的还是会想要找个人 依靠 得到他的安慰安抚
只是想要自己就那样的快乐
然后不再去想 不再转牛角尖
让快乐 让自己不烦恼 放下早该放的 放下必须放的 看开必须看开的
就这样一直的大笑 一直的快乐 抹去那些不该存在的郁闷
那样的颠那样的疯那样的sanpat的女生
所以现在我才可以像大家认为的卢芊颖
每天玩闹 每天快乐 不正劲

我相信 我可以
我还可以继续那样的快乐让自己好过
直到 能办到 拿得起放得下
完完全全的放下所有 而不是一直想这样逃避着掩饰着
以前的她不会是再隐性的了 但她放下看透

加油!
我还是以前的卢芊颖!:)

Nice song which accompany me whole night :)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Memories of 2011

Happy New Year 2012!! :)
Such a long time didn't come and update because...quite busy and I had forgot my password!! >.<
Here I come! Just wanna talk about my story of lovely training!

My 2011 life really sucks...bad to the MAX but Ending with such a memorable internship and those lovely fellow! Love them!

10 of US, different classes even don't know each other b4 the internship be paired, but...
We had fun We had joy All in the Grand Millennium Kuala Lumpur! :)
I cherish the moment we together! GMKL & Genting trip! Unforgettable memories! :')
Love you guys!<3

I learnt lots when I am training.
How fake of people How reality of people...I aware from there.
By the way, some of them treat me nice! I love them!
And I know quite lot friends, some of them same with me also, as a Trainee :)
They are from Swiss, France, KDU, Taylor's etc
I was go through 5 outlets in 3 months and with different position different kind of nice uniform also XD

Banquet~ boring boring boring but learnt lots about hotel there and chat with those clients, speaker :) This was the place I start met new friends from many departments since it is only foreigner's worker and no girl here :(
Mill cafe~ The only department will appear the idea of "1 Malaysia" cause that was different type of ethnic staff here. Wiping wiping WIPING, that was what I did the first week there even almost cry! How the Excellent Girl Captain Treat me! but luckily another captain save me so my 2nd & 3rd will be okay but busy busy busy when breakfast time. *Coffee Tea Coffee tea Coffee Tea Chocolate >.< Host, ask for room no. and tick and assist them to their place. You will crazy when all the guests come tgt! And even get scold of the boss there. Seriously, I don't like work with him but I enjoy the time with him when out of work :) That was some of the staff there care me lots!*appreciate And, this was the department I was fainted and...Famous >.<
LaiChingYuen~ Spilt shift!! But enjoy it caused we had fun when break time...We hang out to search for delicious food :) This was the place I get to know how scary of people's mouth. I feel disappointed of auntie. I had look down of her. I take back my respect from her! Aunties always thought they were old and had a lot of experience than us, STUBBORN to the MAX! Sometimes really wrong but don't want take the advice from us just because they thought they had many experiences than us and eat more rice than us! but, that is a nice staff there. When I said "Hungry", after free...I had food at the Kitchen! He will get me my favourite, cake :) He is the only nice staff here but he was left!*other trainee were miss him lots since he was really good staff and the only helpful hand here . Sometime will be late to finish work then they won't send me home. At here, we always curi makan XD The food really nice XD But a noob boss here, always make the thing up side down! Don't know how to arrange thing! Even trainees also better than him! Like to talk bullshit but don't know how to do the things well! No comment for him =.= But, I am the lucky one to have a chance as the waitress of Malaysia International Gourment Festival. The reviewers were from Brazil and under Dato' Steve. They were coming to our restaurant to giving marks. We were the 28 out of 30 of 5 stars restaurant to welcome them! Nice experience! ^^
Housekeeping~ Tired but Nice!!! I was really enjoy when I was as a Room attendant even It really TIRED! But the kakakx2 abangx2 there really nice. Clean clean clean and time pass soon! I prefer afternoon shift since I was saw them take care of each other help each other finish work together and waiting back home time together also! Even will have 10 room attendants in a room XD I love Mocha style room and GM's dog yume :) As a Floor supervisor like take a slim down course XD I need to go up and down to find my mentor abang Amin XD He always lost and just leave me in the room since he dont wish I too tired >.< I was fall in sleep in the room. But he is Nice! :) I not really like Public area...not much thing i can learn. Only wash toilet :(
Front Office~ Spend 1 month here. The department I learnt lots and make a lot of friends :) I was as a Guest Service Officer :) I need to assis VIP VVIP VVVIP guests and stand by at lobby to assist everyone who need me XD It is quite enjoy. The first week I am totally stress cause I am the one first communicate with guests and need to assist them for check in/out but I have no idea. Only 4 counter there and the queue was become long and long and the guest has no more patient, this time I really don't know what I should do Stress to the MAX. I even as a Concierge cause I need to assist all the guests and they will ask me lots of Q such as what is the nice food in Malayssa where is here and there etc. Bell girl also although I am under GSO cause I need to help all the guest who has facing problem. Business Centre also XD Unfortunately, I cant do check in/out cause I am a trainee only but the GSA there treat me nice even teach me what I wish to know. Suddenly I be transfer to Health Club. XD SPA, Gym, Swimming pool and tennis court. I need to light up all the candle, place the aroma, test the PH & Chlorine. I need to go up and down to take care all of it. Sometime will chit chat with a la carte staff and the manager. The manager always be kacau by me since their office just in front of me XD He is smart also ccause he can guess what I think XD I enjoy as a GSO also! :)

Some of the department I din go through but you guys teach me lots, care me & we have fun! Thanks and glad to know you guys, Linen who always care me once he meet me, Steward supervisor, abang-abang of Room service, Chef of Mill, Chef Tan who give me advice, Mr. Floyd who always give me the headache questions & share me his experience, Mr. Maniaam, Mr. Phabra who always be kacau by me share me experience save me when I am really hungry and make me confused with Mr. Bala a nice guy when they together at the first time I met them, All the security, Reservation department, Mr. Basheer, Mr. Royston who give me the chance to join GMKL etc :)

Time flies.....16th December 2011, I had finished my training. I miss them lots! I miss the staff there!  I miss the trainee/ part timer from different college and country! I enjoy the time with them! I was glad to meet them to know them! I appreciate what they give me! I appreciate all the moment we had fun! I am glad I was joining this big family! :') Now, Everything just let it be a Nice Sweet Warmth Happy Memories!
How are you guys....? Just wanna tell you guys, Thanks & I miss you!<3

And yet, ended this post with the song sang in GMKL, You can count on me! :)

10 of us!<3

I am Gemini :)

双子座常常因为年少轻狂而和真爱擦身而过,
在年轻的时候双子座的人常常会为了赌一口气而装做不在乎,
明明心里很在乎,心里都已经在淌血了,
可是还是装出一 副不在乎的样子,也不好意思去追,
因此这一点是双子座心中永远的痛,
其实他也很恨自己为什么他不能克服自己心里的阴暗面,
可是他就是做不到,
常常眼睁睁的 看着自己最爱的人走掉。


心口不一,原因肯定不只一个,
也许是为了保护自己脆弱的心,
也或许不愿别人想太多,
令本来简单的事变复杂,
而这却是双子讨厌自己的地方,
明明心里爱着,却不知为何总是说着冰冷的话语拒绝,
明明不想放手,却不知为何果断的答应,
是太爱还是太恨,
是陷的太深还是从未真正进入,
很多时候这都已经不再重要,
因为谎言伤害的不只是对方,还有自己。